TH7/3/2002: playing cricket in a hedge maze with the sun shining golden. Karl from neighbours (only it doesn't look like him) is bowling and knocks the near wicket with the ball and there is laughter as he walks towards it, then he bowls again and the stumps are floating in the air by magic as he crouches and looks at the wicket with an angry shouting look on his face. then some kids on a grassy field magically disappear and are replaced by sacks of plastic with sinister but colourful faces/bodies painted on them, including what looks like a shark mouth, only it has rectangular teeth and a sinister smile more like a tiger. also the plastic sacks are ruffled by some mysterious magic wind which calms down as soon as the kids disappeared. then i realise that i am watching TV and shy away (it is with Noel and Joan on the BBC) from it, realising that i had been quite confident before. as i leave i notice a pink plastic object floating in the air by the other wicket as a blonde haired woman is smiling and also watching it. also i am in an underground hell cave as i say sarcastically "hell would be me shovelling coals back and forth while cooking dinner that would never be good enough with Janet Street-Porter." then after i walked out on the tv show i entered what was like an alternative version of the flat bathroom except with blue/red/purple colours. Noel comes in behind me only it is a different and more monstrously strong version of Noel. he has a body like concrete only with the same red/blue/purple colours as the bathroom. then i think he is going to anally rape me but instead he picks me up with one hand and raises me to the flourescent light in the ceiling which seems much higher than before. it also seems as if great energy of intent is possessing both of us and making me raise my left arm towards the light just as i realise Noel is trying to electrocute both of us. then i get scared and scream "somebody help me!" as i wake up before the electricity gets me. also i had the strongest feeling that this was a "taste of hell" and i was deeply disturbed by this.
FRI21/9/2001: i have a blue credit card. someone buys a record that i recommend to them and i smile while listening to Linkin Park (With You) as they are listening to it. I am in a boat on a lake with a lot of lily pads, the boat is a small rowing boat. i think the record i recommended is a dance record with some singing (maybe Beck?). also the reason i am in the boat is because i am fishing. earlier on my dad appeared while i was in transit on a coach and we expressed some emotions to each other.
also in a shopping centre where i am left by Noel and Joan at a snack bar. seats are laid out. i pick up a tray and buy some cake, plus a drink and some other items. i sit down with some other people and we get into a heated conversation about the spirit world. the others are all laughing at me and saying that God and the astral plane doesn't exist, but i am getting quite angry and tell them how i believe in that stuff. i make the move unintentionally of putting the index finger of my left hand in the air (number one) but no-one notices. also i ask the others if they believe in God. one of them shouts out "Yes i do!" then begins mocking me by doing an impersionation of a preacher. another one admits that he believes in God but then starts joking with the others that God is not "up there in the sky". at this point i am finished eating and i leave saying that i enjoyed myself but adding that i won't be inviting the hallelujah person again (the one who made fun of God). next i head to the car park where i find Noel and Joan.
