SU6/5/2016: in Sidcup high street near the Macdonalds and Alladins cave where this old thin man is selling chocolates at a street vendor stand. I buy some chocolates and he laughs at me. I think in the dream “what if thugs on the street come to attack him?” and I realise he is too resilient. Then throughout the dream there is the feeling that I am working but the reason is schizophrenic and I glide along while in Petts Wood In the road from the station perpendicular to Prescott Avenue a man stops his car in the driveway and he has gray hair like Tony Nichols and he is Canadian and seems angry as he walks off thinking I should work more. Then I see a dog (labrador) lying on its back on the grass with its nuts visible but when I move towards it it flies off into the oak tree of collosal heights nearby...
TH30/6/2016: at this big area outdoors at daytime when John Lennon is approached by a sexy young girl who asks him for sex. It is the older John Lennon and he says “first I would have to check with the deal with my life” looking behind him. Then he says “i have to go back to some of my magick”. I feel peeved and walk off. Then in another dream in Petts Wood Keith from Orpington College is increasingly nasty to me over some incident I can't recall...
SA23/7/2016: recently the end of a dream where I am a hunched over well-muscled porn star with black and white tattooes of ICE MAN and black around the eyes...
TH11/8/2016: Shifty Shellshock and a movie???
FR12/8/2016: playing a brand new Canadian computer game where everything is hyper realistic. A top down map is shown for each pixel containing a place with the map and the game is like an adventure but very hard. The graphics are advanced. A monorail leads over sea and I dive into the sea to avoid deadly shark like flying creatures...
then the land is important? Flying? Tribesmen with weapons?
Then Noel and Joan leave but can I pick the lock on the liquor room? No because I already have bottles of wine and I find a bottle opener!
SA13/8/2016: xmas???
SU14/8/2016: a vivid dream but I am too lazy to write it down...
on the tube trains in London getting ready for Ozzfest and all the bands which will play in London nightclubs... I purchase a Kerrang magazine and a Time Out magazine. The tube trains are crowded...
writing Doom the computer game with different screen resolutions...
MO15/8/2016: rebellious but learning to play a musical instrument from sheet music...
WE17/8/2016: ending with a serious MM roll over green face...
FR19/82016: creating things to be shot at with revolvers out of card and explosives and skin poison. The designs are artistic and the whole thing is to be held in a Sydney apartment or office type place. But I get locked in and later a woman arrives who is eating peanuts out of a bag and SHE DID IT! We all try to shoot her but she survives. Every time I touch one of the poisonous devices a shudder passes through my lower left side...
then a dream also in Sydney where I keep eating these lollies which cause a kind of trip like drugs but everytime I do so I get wound up in a horrible plot. Eventually though I nerve it out and emerge in Sydney airport with a joyful feeling...
then a dog in a dream where Joan is buying me some fancy software. At the end of the dream some people are naked...
walking into a bookstore in a high street in England I meet two members of the modern Pink Floyd but they are just finishing an autographing session and are leaving. The salesperson says drinking caffeine is good because it statistically reduces traffic accidents. A youngish woman is leaving with her kids. I select a couple of books, some double sided tape and a red and orange dragon statue before leaving...
SU28/8/2016: (NIN Hurt is playing on my iPod) and James Morey is at the Chis n' Sid only he is a different person and singing NIN and he is like a vampire. Incredibly strong he is, and I end up having to do something to scare him off...
then James again is being reasonable but twice I end up around this fat blond priest who is a man but looks like a woman. The age of the priest looks to be twenty-something... he is a bad bully and I want to punch Morey when I am around the priest... the priest is wearing a fancy white shirt and the whole thing is in the Chis n' Sid...
then a selection of dreams where Marilyn Manson is on my Ipod and the music merges with the dream... how awful Mechanical Animals is and army men on the microphone and some people who dedicate their lives to Marilyn Manson and how they suffer a hideous penalty if they lose it!
TH1/9/2016: experiencing love and hate in a more advanced psychic age... love is a path and hate is another path...
FR9/9/2016: Duff McKagan of Guns and Roses is involved with me and the band somehow... in a Sydney suburb where the size of Sydney is comprehendable as massive and people are doing things in a sexy way... also earlier some people had ended up in Risdon and the more intellectual crimes they were still allowed to use computers and play the drums... also if I had learnt piano from my parents at a young age I would be different now...also earlier Duff McKagan got something and cackled with a bearded red laugh of madness...
SA10/9/2016: walking down a train station platform in London Sam from Clyde storms past me and violently bashes the sweet chocolate bar vending machine to receive all the contents, then I try to catch a train on with Haley from Chis-n-Sid but the thing is too fast??? or I get off at the wrong station...
TU27/9/2016: Simone is really upset and Kevin Cooley is competitive as computer game writing is a competition like table tennis at Saint Audrey's Bay. Edmund NG, Michael Dickinson, Stewart Gandy and Simone and others are all coming up with original stuff. The resemblance to table tennis is uncanny... Vlad Tepes? Vampires? Spray gloss-paint?
A doctor in training is specializing in Gynachology but everyone in the university is laughing when he realizes he might not be able to do research all the time and instead might have to plow through women's period problems...
then I dream I am in a variation of New Norfolk where I get some instant coffee and fly through the air cross legged meditating on a pentagram with the mantra “i focus on strength”... I smash the coffee against the ground but the coffee is in a white plastic jar...
WE28/9/2016: a dream where a marriage ring is presented to a girl whose parents are in a country place with Tim Henman and the girl? We all scoot off on magickal fireborn powers but the powers get out of control...
then Joan and Noel are away from the Petts Wood house at night when a bunch of kids are acting intimidating and I feel bad for being older but not entirely in control as I search for nicotine replacements and find an expensive one at a doctors surgery which is like a brown chewy lozenge, kind of like an oval. It is like chewing tobacco. The taste is very bitter. Noel and Joan arrive back and earlier a movie was being made which I was a part of, kind of like Friday the 13th...
FR30/9/2016: a Carlos sprite is dancing around as a buff Dave Navarro when he pulls out and comes but the empty hole and bliss is incredible, aswell as the sadness...
SA1/10/2016: journeying through Tasmanian countryside with Alex Brunton. A medieval battle when Satanism is discussed. A Hindu newsagent... selecting coloured pencils for drawing (the supply in the shop is huge)...
TH6/10/2016: at the end of the dream Bono from U2 is performing a new song but he looks like he hasn't been eating properly and has the sunken eyes look of a heroin addict...
SA8/10/2016: I am in a car driven by Thom O'Brien as he accelerates madly along this road and I keep asking him to slow down... but I enjoy it...
TU11/10/2016: writing a computer game with triangle based ground (some underwater) when I leave out an hour and write it as a NO G...
WE12/10/2016: drawing vanishing point images on paper...
TH13/10/2016: Mr Horrobin is with mates and is a lot younger and is playing some kind of sport... a train ride strange?
FR14/10/2016: losing my virginity and shopping for breakfast cereal...
SA15/10/2016: Paula Yates is not well remembered. Andrew Moscow from school is very spokesworthy at college and a man is seen with a turd fish strapped to his grinning social face...
SU16/10/2016: creating a 3D VR wedding with the help of Murray and Lane Hammond. It is all on a house on the East Derwent highway. VR holograms? Lane in a negligie?
MO17/10/2016: dreamt Dave Grohl is singing without a guitar onstage with his tattoed arms exposed...
TH20/10/2016: a VERY REALISTIC Marilyn Manson is onstage leafing through a copy of his new autobiography made in the Sayten recording stage... he peels off a white tattoed layer of plastic on his shaved head to reveal lots of MM designs done in a revolutionary form of 3d black paint...
SA22/10/2016: the year is in the late 80s and I am on a train with my parents in China where there is a laundry service on the train but our clothes get all confused up and we get off the train just at the right time at the right stop with the right clothes???
TU25/10/2016: Noel (Joan is absent) is talking with Geoff and I in the 27 Lyminge Close flat... I am showing Geoff fractals and saying how there is an exhibition with my work in North London...
WE26/10/2016: dreamt in black and white that an expensive party with Mick Jagger was being held in Scotland? Open castle...
FR28/10/2016: diving down at the end of a dream into a lake with lots of decaying junk at the bottom. Will my legs break as I enter the water?
SU6/11/2016: on a boat we travel to Orpington College where I am an older student entering an art course and I feel insecure but motivated and I meet the “younger Keith” and we have to start by drawing something. One of the students makes a remark about me “probably just lying in bed drunk with art on the go”...
MO7/11/2016: in a strange building some very bad emotion with chinese women and a chinese woman finds me at an old computer trying to do something...
WE7/12/2016: some young guys are making a marijuana bong over the fingers of my right hand and smoking the weed whilst I look at my hand in the dream...
FR9/12/2016: Shifty Shellshock and he was showing me how to play Desert Rock on the Korg Kronos...
SA10/12/2016: Eminem in an alternative Petts Wood... he is psycho-kleptic and is advising me on how to run my life...
TU13/12/2016: in the office next door to my room Evelyn King the nurse is making a raucous joke with the others about sex...
WE14/12/2016: Jo Wiley and some fashionable young people are traveling on public transport in London where someone (including me) takes 'radiation pills' which make you super powered but they are very dangerous and you feel as you are about to die. Marilyn Manson enters the room and I start leaping around trying to kill snow...
TU20/12/2016: in the 27 Lyminge Close flat the lights are out and I think I am alone but it turns out my future girlfriend, a skinny girl with spiky hair and the Caines as well as Dave Navarro and Mary Anne are there as she (my girlfriend) says she was at Orpington from 01 whilst I say I was there from 94 to 96... I have to think about this...
then another dream which is also hyper realistic where a young man is praised for his performance guru skills and runs a very alternative practice telling people how to run their lives... he thinks I can be a great computer games programmer but we never really solve motivation... he does say how dangerous the psych wards are though... my computer game comes to life in the dream with rendered 3D dungeon motifs and a voice which says “we are the enemies” about the characters of the game... a rocky like furnace looking head in red and orange is animating and is saying “you're in my dungeon now”...
then I run into a male mindfulness guru who shits on major religions and conspiracies and it is dangerous but funny...
WE21/12/2016: at a party with the Royal young sons and some of their friends. More and more of their friends show up and they do not act as I expect them to. They almost speak in their own language and a pizza is ordered for me whilst the princes want to see my game. Then their friends get against me... the young princes are smoking marijuana and one of their friends says “he made a mistake bullying our ship down”...
TH22/12/2016: in an old city I try to find out where the UTAS library is (it is like London but why the UTAS library I don't know). This is supposed to be the largest library in the world (like in a previous dream). Then I find the location thanks to an app on my iPod and get a couple of books out. On the way back I meet the tall PE teacher from Chis-n-Sid who has a leg injury and then on my own I enter a pub (in the middle of the day) and make a joke to the lady serving there but she responds flirtatiously and I take my beer and escape before an ambulance screams by (she was on her mobile phone) and a bomb goes off. She had the union jack painted on her face... and a worried look...
FR6/1/2017: Noel and Liam Gallagher of Oasis are in the dream and they have incredible energy and emotion around them but it seems like the same sort of trickery in several of my other dreams...
WE11/1/2017: saw a VERY REALISTIC sinister alien head (like Roswell) in a triangular white area...
SU29/1/2017: a wiccan witch has written a book on making and charging an object for telekinetic purposes... I am making the object and can't stop blabbing all the time. Then a joke with the author in a forest setting at night: “and this conversation starts and doesn't stop for two hours, then he goes hmmm... that was alright”... she had a witchy face... (at the time I was thinking of astral projection)...
FR3/2/2017: playing a realistic Bloodlust Software game where a party is taking place and everyone is Satanic, inlcluding me. A character says “everyone at the party will laugh at you”, but Paul Daniels turns up and as a miniature figure in a yelllow shirt and red leather jacket he says in the earth that “what goes on in the dark hearts of man?”. I know I should work hard at this party since everyone else is Satanic so I can justify my work even though they are laughing at me...
Then diving off very tall islands into the sea...
SA4/2/2017: I am watching what I think is a video in a basement featuring a young woman I nearly recognize with big tits and it keeps changing characters and in the end I go outside to realize the whole thing has been set up to advertise a university I am in... the young woman smiles at me and I mention how when I was young I wanted to be a computer programming genius...
SU5/2/2017: at the end Thomas Hardy was running around blasting blue aliens...
TU7/2/2017: I am searching for a woman who I am hooking up with to write computer games. I find a Hindu lady who guides me to the flat where the lady is staying... I mention to her that I used to do yoga and we talk about staying in those flats and she says “yes, we like to know people's solutions” whilst touching her nose and then I make arrangements to see the Lady the next day. My car is parked in a difficult to remember place and I have to run to get to it because my parking time limit expires at 9:25...
watching Tool play live and debugging bits of the latest Ultima game
then I am at a rock venue next to Tottenham Road Tube station as a surfing band are playing who I have not heard of and one guy is smoking and looks like a young Krist Noveselic from Nirvana and is smoking arrogantly and wearing army camouflage trousers as I walk around then I am using a rendered Direct3D version of the scene and think “wow! This is great I can't wait to write games again!”...
TH16/2/2017: dreamed of a hunched down id software programer with a bulky build with sunburn staring at me like mindfulness was his diet as well as mindfulness and being thick... he was just contemplating writing more code almost infinitely...
TU28/2/2017: climbing a mountain like Everest but north of the Himalayas with some tourists and bad shit like Anousha as we crack something open at the oxygen deprived summit like the outer space of the top of the mountain...
TH9/3/2017: eroticism from incest and pissing
FR10/3/2017: achieving Jennifer Williams but her Dad was angry with me that I should have phoned her up when I was supposed to...
SA11/3/2017: playing drum and bass numbers like the Korg Kronos but on a computer? In the end it takes me on escapades involving a woman in her flat...
TU14/3/2017: swarms of wasps possess me as I solve puzzles to do with a film character...
start of Sivablood Dream Diary:
FR17/3/2017: sub zero temperatures are useful for a secret: below that temperature for a long time a human can survive easily and attain super powers! Abby Cain and a few others know this...
a total nightmare! Everyone is against me like life is constantly alive and all I did was make mistakes. In this reality I have come to reap what I have sown and it is AWFUL! A town of medieval nature or such like a university but none I have known before is where most of it takes place and Thom O'Brien is dealing with me aswell as everyone else. READING THE BOOKS WAS A SERIOUS MISTAKE!!! I realize I cannot go back and rot: I must move forward and accept life, like Orpington time again... secret powers I cannot help using...
SA18/3/2017: I am reading a Robert Jordan novel but the plot is about me and as I travel around by the coast of this place like England on foot the path becomes increasingly more dangerous because of the telepathy with the book. I am about to die if I don't get something right but the odds are slim...
then a dream where “you know Kevin Cooley , if we were in America I could sue you” as I talk outside the Clyde office. Money? The complaint is about something that was said which was offensive... I am trying to take it in good spirits but this is very difficult...
then a dream where members of the family are in Australia but nowhere we know when Angela is a child and so am I but the timing is not clear and some early Dick Smith like computer is around and it is used for corny purposes and Nick is very angry whilst we all carry on...
Donald Trump is in the next dream... he is a character who is acting abusive of power so his reputation is falsely preserved. He is scamming a lot of people but any enemies he does horrible things to. Somehow he runs a supermarket. Marilyn Manson is set to be on the cover of the next Rolling Stone magazine and I want to buy a copy. I find a shopping mall where there is an automatic shower hidden in the arcade. I also end up in a computer shop watching older computers with an animated cut scene from a RPG in which a sea monster is doing nasty things...
SU19/3/2017: Orpington College art class only it is different and Darth Vader turns up and Barry Tulip is dissassociative. I feel sad and Germaine Greer arrives at a party...
a much more vivid dream where some art school type guys are real underground, hypnotized and dangerous. They want to see some sort of evil drowning or strangled death or see me fall from the great height of the concrete building. A blonde thin woman is there and also a man who looks like a kind of Damien Hirst... later they die of their own poison and I want to buy music magazines...
then packing stuff (food) into a helicopter and getting ourselves in there too. It is an army helicopter but we are all young. The stuff we pack in the helicopter slides around and we are dropped out unceremoniously out of the helicopter and I damage my knee again...
MO20/3/2017: a tiny motor boat makes it's way up river with no-one on it. The dragon tarot is involved. Lots of sand and seaweed, even though this isn't the ocean. A party where everyone is fashionable clubbing types in a house where Elvis and a hot date turn up...
TU21/3/2017: a long dream involving a lot of travel over mountainous Hindu Indian land where a train is making way and various people are overcoming restrictions to party and carry on. Football players, businessmen and politicians are involved. So Is Axl Rose and Marilyn Manson...
on the summit of one town a forest of red Chinese warriors like the terracotta ones but vermillion red are glimpsed...
WE22/3/2017: I successfully shoplift some herbal pills from a chemist
porn, a group of young men in a magazine walking in the forest and how they find a clearing showing evidence that another young man had been there and was infact taking a shower?
FR24/3/2017: a whole realistic national park with coastal cliffs is where I walk/run in a climactic struggle to navigate terrific headwinds which are why my parents are phoning the authorities about my disappearance and how I end up back at Geilston Bay...
a quest or magazine to do with being stranded... PJ Harvey is covered in blood in one issue...
SA25/3/2017: late at night I see the black form of the keyboard bag become Anita Waciq...
a couple of dreams where I am finding my way in London and sexually arriving...
TU28/3/2017: culminating in a large monkey being electrocuted...
WE5/4/2017: a series of adventures featuring a moveable effect on a computer graphics display...
drinking cola and writing computer games. Something requires immense precision...
then George confesses to masturbation in the woods but nothing spectacular. “The Observer takes care of the rest”. A large slimy banana like ooze is an alien out the back?? this he uses for masturbation??
then Michael Hutchence is wearing a loose white shirt and singing “feeling, believing” or something like that...
TH6/4/2017: a trek in the forest where a group of young people are sabotaging someone...
virtual reality but you can lose body parts!
At the chis n sid but I am older and a film festival is in connection with this teacher and bad treatment of me by some cosmic thing. No matter how I act I stuck in this situation...
FR7/4/2017: I am trekking through the Tasmanian jungle at night with Noel and Joan when a meal is prepared from strange ingredients. One dish is a kind of tiny mummified cows head in black like charcoal. I kiss it before I eat it...
a forest trek at night where a computer screen is running a program where lighting effects are used in 2D over a meal ingredients. In colours of red and orange blobs are used as lights... Joan and Noel and myself are using it to get the perfect result...
SA8/4/2017: “can anyone tell me what the time is?” I ask near the end of this dream where I am frantically dressing myself from naked. “about 11:30am” says someone...
SU9/4/2017: a version of football is played in the gardens of the Church Avenue Sidcup houses. A version of Daniel Robinson is there. Also a series of hardcover books for sale of a horror theme...
TU11/4/2017: I lose it repeatedly. Marilyn Manson is in it. Noel is angry with me. I go to war over something stupid. Shower gel was involved...
a profusion of maggots that keep ending up in the food I make, but I run my life and complete the game levels of my own game...
WE12/4/2017: something is taking place in the houses out the back of the 27 Lyminge Close flats and the wood ceiling and floor are becoming increasingly more real in the vision but something calls it all off...
TH13/4/2017: I take a drug like absinthe and it affects my brain drastically. A group of us friends are playing Dungeons and Dragons and I vote to have some experimental brain surgery done on myself in real life after the game. Going to the surgeon is like being on the uplink to something but I reassure myself that this so called side effect is not real and the next time I really do get the brain surgery to happen! Also a huge rollercoaster type ride in conjunction with the brain surgery...
SU16/4/2017: travelling fast on a train into London and counting 1, 2, 3 to have masturbation and avoid the evil menacing characters who want to catch me with their psychic powers and ruin my fun...
TU18/4/2017: Mr. Horrorbin is acting like a bastard...
FR21/4/2017: a bunch of us Uni students are gathered... someone is leaving a right mess...
MO24/4/2017: a huge tropical style my own style island I am on where ridiculous games are played about a witch (Jennifer Sykes?) an I am not good enough at completing them...
WE26/4/2017: a very realistic dream where a whole bunch of us are together on this quest to overcome various psychic things going on like the end of the world and it turns out by the end of the film that my character is not who I think I am. Some people I do not really know in real life are in this film and we are all acting in bizarre ways to do with a plot like Cell with Jennifer Lopez... the kind of magick that is mentioned in the dream is real in a way but also different like explainably different...
FR28/4/2017: a VERY VERY realistic dream which lasts for ages and is all about magick and perception. Bits that are seen and thought are integral with bits that happen or don't happen. This becomes clear through much danger, even in the future where my magick exists and things come together in DANGEROUS ways. Can life really exist in such danger? YES!
SU30/4/2017: a reality tv show sort of dream with a lot of danger and Jack Dee turns up causing psychic accidents which are perceptive to him but not others and tries to use his psychic power of the nose to avoid a fight...
zombies, viloma, the Prescott Avenue house which I cannot gain access to even though I ask my mother and father for a key...
MO1/5/2017: Twin Peaks as a vampire horror film on tv... a red backdrop and someone pours salted substances on the head of a vampire and he screams and burns!
TH4/5/2017: Michael Hutchence's blond dreadlocks on the cover of Kick with the red and white stripes...
later a dream where I am watching a version of INXS live but Michael keeps screaming in my face showing his teeth and Paula Yates was backstage with bright red lipstick on...
FR5/5/2017: a dream where I am collecting 3 of these cheap light music keyboards in black and trying to get them to work together to layer a sound with MIDI...
TH11/5/2017: dreamt of playing a whole lot of musical synthesizers...
WE17/5/2017: fell asleep listening to MM Live on my Ipod Touch and had a dream where I was violently losing it as Marilyn Manson myself...
TH18/5/2017: Allison Hannigan in a variety of places...
FR1/6/2017: taking pointers on coding games from a magazine published in an office building in Tokyo... a lot of nasty behaviour
then a dream with Christian people all acting on “Christian principles” whereas I am acting on “Devil's principles”... the idea is that they are criticizing me for going the Devil's way whereas their potentially nasty methods are good because of the Christian principles they are formed around... and how I will never be a Christian...
SU4/6/2017: flinging dry brush paint strokes very fast backwards and forwards over a canvas to create an abstract paint effect that is very crude...
MO5/6/2017: terrified Mel Robbins didn't work and the computer game programming had fallen through!
WE7/6/2017: I was obsessed with Orpington College in my dreams... the mindset of someone using their mind to do things and some of the people and the romance (though dark) of the place, particularly the art department...
TH8/6/2017: I am going to Sydney university but everyone is having a go at me and laughing at me (not everyone together) as I make my way around what seems to be like DPM or PICU... I am writing my game but get more and more steam under my belt as I go, thinking that the first code I write will be the hardest but after that the function calls will get easier and I will gain some strength...
FR9/6/2017: dreamt I was in a hospital where some guys broke in and kept interrupting what was going on on my computer so in the end I got angry and smashed the monitor over this guys head so he was electrocuted... earlier David Sevagge grabbed a copy of my Book Of Study and flicked madly through the pages coming to point at a word as he said it and said “you are no Ring Chronicler Andre! I found the wrong answer here”
TU13/6/2017: the band Marilyn Manson has had the singer replaced with a girl who looks a bit like Sara Michellle Gellar but all their new material has a military flavour and she is dressed in army type clothes...
WE14/6/2017: I am Brian Molko and I have alternative tunings on my guitar...
then I am bungee jumping off bridges as Justin Hall as I prepare to confront aliens...
TH15/6/2017: I am at a Chinese high school but get laughed out...
SA16/6/2017: a black Australian gangster series of actors and actresses behaves like maniacs with me... very realistic
SU21/6/2017: a computer game like Ultima (the old ones before VII) only the game is somehow tangled with real life...
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TH22/6/2017: in real life I am having sex with my new girlfriend all over countryside in England? Condoms... choices I am making about what I want to do...
SA24/6/2017: I am studying. A probe for outer space. An investigator. Nazi airplanes...
I am drinking absinthe with Marilyn Manson. In film studies at a university he visits a film showing and someone says about him that “he is looking for ways of stealing that are out of the normal”s
SU25/6/2017: amongst other things a giant waterfall like a sink where I clamber over rocks and operate it...
TH29/6/2017: an airport... I am the life and soul of the party...
FR30/6/2017: a massive house carved into the sandstone which we are buying off these asian young foursome who are giggling as they hand over the property to Noel, Joan and I. It is somewhere in Australia and the building was somehow written in DirectX
how the war was started with Hitler
SA1/7/2017: a reality check dream where I am in Hobart but living differently. I am forced to acknowledge things from what is around me and how things are happening. I am watching more TV and don't like some of the things I find on it but I am transfixed by Freddie Mercury nailing a stand up comedy type riff which is very sexy but “laying it on the line”... in the end I am in a fight but this guy knows martial arts so I just back off...5
I am totally psycho in New York. All I can do I watch MTV...
SU2/7/2017: masturbating with a longer penis than I have...
MO3/7/2017: it is demonstrated incredibly that Christianity makes people perfect their art... this is painfully made clear that Christians have almost superpowers at working at a task and can apply their religion to any type of work...
TU4/7/2017: Hell is real but only in a non-physical hallucinatory kind of way, Sheila from England is accused of being a psychopath, then paints? Salad ingredients are part of how a Texas type scene is to do with me in the countryside...
making an animated demo that is interactive on a computer with DirectX...
WE5/7/2017: takes off from previous dreams... I am climbing a mountain covered in snow with a coloured guide but I break off and go back to where the public toilet was over the river and masturbate very carefully, aware that the guide is still on the mountain...
bad sexually is manifested in anger and is not what I want in this dream set in a modern shopping center where I have tools or weapons but if I get it wrong I will blow my short anger fuse...
TH6/7/2017: tomography with green leaves, art, masturbation...
FR7/7/2017: on a strange island Michael Hutchence is rehearsing in some resort complex at night and quits the restaurant to much evil laughter... he is throwing moves together for a performance and is wondering about Andre...
as part of applying for exams at the end of Chis and Sid we are forced to do tedious copying of ancient Egyptian papyruses onto slates...
SA8/7/2017: on an alien planet Star Wars Imperial stalkers follow Chewbacca and I as we head underwater in a lake...
WE12/7/2017: justification for these Sam Raimi type of horror films as I watch films on TV which I saw when I was in the first year of the Chis-n-Sid or earlier (with the Hammonds in Australia). A woman with a Nikita head, doing it at high altitude and how every time I watch a film the altitude we are at is even higher. The message is that these films will lead us to the other side...
evocation of a Cthulhu and Goetia demon...
in the next life (in the astral) I get to manipulate the waves with magick to create Armaggedon...
similar theme but by a seafront at evening, aware of the tide and natural laws of physics...
TH13/7/2017: Catherine Aston is being drugged and kidnapped by the CIA, who are really mental health... all over Australia she is taken...
then in a dream I insult Mr Horrorbin around the Chis-n-Sid whilst going off on the train but later he is on the train aswell as some kids who ask me to play my keyboard and I do, inventing a song whilst on the train...
a pair of pirates in old fashioned dress and I am one of them we are drinking in the inn of some town where the boat is at dock and someone tries to arrest us because we have something which could be of value but we lie so we get to keep it...
FR14/7/2017: a research/learning trip into South America where I see people being attacked by wild possessed men who are possessed by the Goetia spirit Ronove but the flaming brands do not touch the skin of the men. I am enlisted in helping this task and we journey forth...
86 x 8 metres is how deep a section of indoor water is in a shopping center where I see Jennifer Haime swimming at the top of this watery area and I madly dash about the shopping center trying to navigate the bizarre system
then a train on a single track headed into mountains where there is a tunnel. I find some D&D models and Allison Hannigan is around working in a shop which sells them. I buy a set of dragon models...
then in a continuation Allison is getting sexy alone at night and an Ent comes to life in the garden of this English countryside as I listen to Allison being in control of digital radio. Her anus?
SA15/7/2017: Alex Brunton is wearing white school shirt and making faces like he is an actor on East Enders.
WE19/7/2017: playing a vivid and colourful computer game like an adventure which I can have a chance at winning...
I am writing a computer game in Visual Basic since Visual Basic is the only way of writing a module to correct a graphics bug... I am explaining how this is related to the guys in KCL who were talking about me outside the office. Then a gas leak? We can all smell it and have to get out of the building before anything explodes...
TH20/7/2017: the actors on Friends...
FR24/7/2017: on a bus with other kids I am avoiding something is it sky diving? The GO or motivation is an issue too...
getting on an aeroplane...
TH27/7/2017: a hallucination in black and white of Daniel Robinson posting something on his iPhone in the unsolvable level of NecroVision...
FR4/8/2017: a massive evil dog like a very brown German alsation....
MO7/8/2017: in a tropical place like Angel Falls Venezuela the worker Rick is there saying “you go on about Chi Kung you'll really be good at this” as I plunge towards the ground head first far below...
WE9/8/2017: eating a poisonous toadstool, “bastard tracker” about this portable camera thing for recording a uni sports event...
FR11/8/2017: an incredibly realistic dream where I do something first on a metaphysical or drug way then gain a 'power' where I later apply for university and am accepted! As I make my way alone across campus (I remember this from earlier dreams) I am the life and soul of the humour and keep getting excited and saying exclamations under my breath such that I am talking psychically to the various other students around... I am trying to find my way to the student bookstores/libraries which I know are ahead of me up north...
the same old arrogant attitude persist with me on the campus but I am just wondering why my self esteem hasn't taken a nose-dive yet...
more fun at the uni, only it is outdoors now and also in a public toilet (male or female?)... walking around on the grass the behaviour of everyone is getting worse but I still feel relatively confident...
SA12/8/2017: a series of encounters with semi-magickal elements, one Chinese one underwater like a giant squid which hurts me as I try to work my way around it, the idea being that our world is full of 'coincidences' that aren't really coincidences at all. Brian Molko and Kiss come into the dream later on... Brian Molko is trying to arrange something??? Kiss are sitting at a cafe like their Chi is very concentrated and their postures show this... they have makeup on
is porn getting in the way???
somehow I am a skinnier version of Axl Rose and I am wearing a black leather jacket and running around on stage. Some jerk is responsible for cutting off somebody's head and he makes fun of the law about the fact they won't catch him... the head gets frozen at some point... I toss it away into the river far down below... a detective thinks the murderer will get caught once the local kids are investigated...
SU13/8/2017: Mr. Horrorbin is getting massively prosecuted for his 'evil' ways. It is said he pushed clever students too fiercely and did diabolic things to the rest... real evil exudes from Mr Horrorbin and his cohorts... I try to act sensible in all this, aware that my 'evidence' may be necessary as we proceed...
harnessing the mathematics of the Mandelbrot to kill snow... in the end I fail but I end up looking at myself in a red padded cube room where more Mandelbrots are being displayed... it is highly likely next time I will succeed... there is a mirror... I am looking at a version of myself standing outside the other version of myself... like astral projection...
MO14/8/2017: Joan is criticizing me for not knowing anything about the internet... I am most offended. A dragon's head, the Ultima games available for download... overlooking Sidcup main road... I grab the horn of the dragon and jump down...
Warner Brothers America (WBA) and a grassy American town... Tony Harding and a sense of clashing...
we have to get out of the 27 Lyminge close flat in the middle of the night because of a kitchen fire...
then Marilyn Manson in his sorceric form... his Anti-Christ Superstar record artwork and a photo of a hellhound....
TU15/8/2017: on a trip through the night in a university I meet Danny the nurse but don't talk to him... I am keeping up with this group of students walking through a kind of arcade where the university shops and cafes are... I enter the 'third eye state' where I can levitate just off my feet and hover through the air. I am pretending to be another male student by shapeshifting and they believe he is being rude to them even though it is just me in disguise... one of them says “he (the guy I am pretending to be not me) gets absorbed in the third eye realm and doesn't want to be amongst us”...
then a very realistic dream set in a university where I feel shunned and disappear off but psychically I am aware of the other students and nearly die when I make it back into the foyer for the end party where a piece of scaffolding comes loose and I am above the ground dangerously hanging on for dear life as other students are in a similar peril... it is almost like the sinking of the titanic and male students snigger at me as I wake up around a skull face talking that “i nearly get picked up on my horse (dad's car) and taken around Eltham etc etc”...
on a ship like the titanic only more modern at night where Joan is yelling at me because she has discovered evidence that I have been doing things with corpses. It is all pretty disgusting and I think I can just argue my way out of it when the entire ship crashes into the pier at night... like a film but have I gone to film school?
A werewolf at the end of a dream comes alive like an Xbox game with a naked Johnathon Goitch doing battle at night by where a railway track runs up into the Carpathian mountains... a skull comes alive with fire advertising this computer game... have I written it? The flaming skull was accompanied by a voice saying “to complete this game you have to climb Mount Everest!”
WE16/8/2017: absolutely nasty nasty nasty as I fail my father in life...
TH17/8/2017: very realistic with a complex emotion... Noel and Joan return from an overseas holiday and Joan has brought this 3D glasses computer game or VR show where a killer David Lynch type vibe is mixed in with a computer game like plot to avoid these evil nasty people who are playing with dangerous beasts... I end up drugged up running for my life through fields of sunflowers... but towards the end the enemy is catching up... a map of the world... where are we??? it is like a world where things have changed over the time... geology? A face like a sunflower?
Very realistic dream where there is a lot of travel and a type of school where the project is on a variety of mental health that is very corrupt and like Greystokes (Tarzan)... Dr. McCarther is a main character and airplane travel occurs as we all have this project to investigate as part of our university course... very dark but intriguing also... we have to learn a lot... supernatural? A house in the countryside...
then a sense of sexual tension as in a posh college or university the end of Friday afternoon comes along and there is a sense of sexual tension as I avoid Dionne and some of the other girls dressed in red as they collect around the back outside. I am one of the last ones inside and some multiple-penised midget is resting like a curiosity... I see Noel and Joan are waiting outside and I hurriedly scramble to get dressed so I can go home...
wasn't even aware I was having a dream... must have been lucid... watching INXS play live and wait a minute! The singer isn't Michael Hutchence, it's Jimmy Barnes!
FR18/8/2017: Stephanie Potgeiter has created on parchment a printed version of the Kabbalah Sephiroth only there are no interconnected lines and it takes me some time before I recognize it as Kabbalah. I am choked with emotion like tears... some mission is going on like middle earth? Beasts?
SU20/8/2017: for longer and longer a group of us youngsters are taken as hostages for use in an alien scam where we get abducted by real aliens. But the closer we get to the take over of Earth by the UFO we are tripped out in the countryside... nudity... bare breasts of this one girl... the world will end... we are trained to accept the alien language to pass in our breath and past our lips... it gets scary later on...
TH24/8/2017: child abuse sexually involving a rural American town and a bitchy woman who wrote a computer game like telepathy... really evil vibe
FR25/8/2017: a shopping mall with hate as I try to find the perfect tobacco and coffee. Very posh shops but they don't sell what I want...
dreamt that I was Michael Hutchence onstage with INXS singing Mediate and I got the lyrics perfect! Even though there was a harrowing feeling like how bleak it really was to be Michael Hutchence onstage....
Orpington College all over again but this time there is a problem with the bus fare back.....
SA26/8/2017: a terrifying nightmare in which I am trying to get a life but my paths collide with a grown up Luke Puplitt and Trent Reznor. Authorities are investigating Trent because he has rigged up apparatus to take him to the Otherside. He runs on a running machine in a secret laboratory/location when the temperature is raised to ridiculous levels and his naked skin is covered in oil and set on fire, not killing him but making him orgasm and he keeps on running so worldwide corruption is possible...
SU27/8/2017: in an unknown city a new artifact is erected, like the Eiffel Tower and I am going to give an opening speech because it is associated with the occult and I am in psychiatry and have studied the occult so I have been chosen to give a speech... black storm troopers emerge at the top and clobber some others since you have to do exactly the right thing or the evil magick of this Goetia-like construction will get you...
a space station (Battlestar Galactica?) and an alien planet...
MO28/8/2017: my new religion is nasty behaviour and constant violence. By doing the wrong thing I am acting out the ICP Hells Pit role I always wanted, and find that people want to buy my music. I feel terrible but I keep on destroying people... it is like a game of killing...
first I am on a tropical island as part of a puzzle computer game then Jo Wiley is asking me questions about the game and I know I have to do a good job answering her even though a lot of pressure is on me...
FR1/9/2017: Pete Sampras wins Wimbledon for the 10th time and a series of apes or gorillas on wheels are rolled out onto the court...
SU3/9/2017: a kid who lives in a swamp is smiling and laughing with love and is going to visit the higher astral...
a school on the astral like an RPG where the day is ending and there is a female teacher who is guiding me in what I am doing. I am using a computer like the others but I have chosen a difficult project to work on and need some help from her. Then the bell goes and I have to walk with her across the school grounds where kids are carrying on and running past us... I comment on how fast some of the kids think and how it must require a lot to be a teacher, also I was thinking in the dream of how some people just say whatever is on their minds but they are competitive legally in terms that they don't want to be sued for saying the wrong thing...
then a long dream where I am writing computer games but I am not sure what approach to take so I am coding/editing some 3D stuff which is quite original but these two teacher type women are very critical and help me even though there is a dangerous nature to them and some kind of magick is involved...
MO4/9/2017: playing a very exciting shoot-em up game in a realistic 3D world, where God Mode is enabled and there is sex too...
FR8/9/2017: transformed myself into a giant version of the He-Man doll...
MO11/9/2017: in the English countryside I am socializing but cruel and evil pranks are played later figured out to be an FBI agent or a psychopath,,, a pub, country walks...
then a long dream where I am in a magickal relationship? It goes on over a long long time with a horned goat man and a frog woman???
then a dream with a viewing deck in the Antarctic where a massive creature performs by leaping in and out of the ice. It is like a giant black sea monster...
TU12/9/2017: Anousha and I are going to be married, but there are royal relations on the Pakistani side of the family who must be satisfied. Noel drives us back in a weird card with Joan and I and we have to do a 'ramp' or loose kinetic energy. Ron Bentley is around. The friends of Anousha greet us by a large pool in a hotel complex when we get back...
in a continuation of the dream Anousha'a family are close to being arrested. I said I knew Anousha was around because I was hearing Robbie Williams songs on the radio and cherubs start appearing. Auntie Lain (Hammond) says that love is something you can't assume will go the way you want but you've got to trust it...
WE13/9/2017: purple beings with black gloves. “there's more than salvation.”
it emerges as the dream continues that fingers are what most people don't concentrate on using generally, as in “that's wankerish”... thinking “smart” about fingers doesn't help, allegedly
I discover in these dreams that there are a variety of tricks that they don't exactly tell you in your education, but knowing these doesn't seem to make life better...
TH14/9/2017: just how far will people go because snow is in their DNA? It is impossible to hold on to my sense of humour as we have to survive this snow thing...
incest in South Africa around Geoffrey Potgeiter and how dangerous he is... someone dies?
SU17/9/2017: potency of 2
MO18/9/2017: potency of 3
potency of 3
TU19/9/2017: potency of 5 where I am tortured by an older Mr. Horrorbin in a cross between London Tube stations and the Chis n Sid... I nearly choke to death on milk. Bjork is around...
potency of 5 as I wind everyone up like Michael Hutchcnce does...
potency of 5 as I am getting horny because of the twins Lyn and Chan...
WE20/9/2017: potency of 2
TH21/9/2017: potency of 7 as I am in Sydney as part of a trip sponsored? We are all involved in these strange activities...
FR22/9/2017: potency of 7 as an RPG marketing media scheme doesn't work...
potency of 5 as an RPG shop opens up in central London... I have to make it back home on the trains... I was going out with Amber...
SA23/9/2017: potency of 4
SU24/9/2017: potency of 6
MO25/9/2017: potency of 6
TU26/9/2017: the tv show Friends and how it is made, with an interview with one of the men on the beach dressed in black saying how the chakras are energy points which the show opens... (potency of 5)
WE27/9/2017: horseplay and shenanigans, most of it ridiculous in nature (potency of 4)
TH28/9/2017: horseplay around the svaddisthanna chakra (potency of 2)
FR29/9/2017: a bunch of shenanigans about getting out of a white van (potency of 3)
SU1/10/2017: minimal shenanigans (potency of 2)
MO2/10/2017: a country house like a castle in the far north of England or Scotland. Shifty Shellshock is there aswell as a girl I have hooked up with over some dating service... we don't really like each other, but weird activities keep happening and there is a buzz (potency of 7)
weird things happening as young people are getting laid. I am involved somehow... (potency of 7)
TU3/10/2017: Perry Farrell is around and getting laid? (potency of 5)
WE4/10/2017: Sir Percival Lilt of the Lyre is one of the (Satanic) characters in D&D with figures modelling a railway in a generated landscape... I want to make up a model railway (potency of 5)
then a walk in mountainous countryside where a collection of sheeps skulls and goats skulls are present... (potency of 5)
TH5/10/2017: modelling and sculpting in shit (potency of 7)
backstabbing, deceit and an erection in London (potency of 3)
FR6/10/2017: a variety of dreams (potency of 3)
SU8/10/2017: potency of 3
TU10/10/2017: potency of 7
WE11/10/2017: dreamt of INXS onstage and how their charisma worked... (potency of 7)
MO16/10/2017: a dream where everyone on this weird hospital ward has a disease like they swallowed too much LSD and this affects them physically as well as mentally... it is frightening as mutant evil is on display in the bizarre behaviour of the patients... (potency of 8)
TH19/10/2017: putting on my face makeup like I am Marilyn Manson and Courtney Love is around
FR20/10/2017: outside Station Road shops I am being stoned to death...
WE25/10/2017: Green Day are performing a gig and I am going to buy their new album afterwards... I pick up a synthesizer
SA28/10/2017: powerful mugwort dreams acting together to teach me about being climactic and how it doesn't always bring you happiness. This woman finishes off by describing Michael Hutchence as a SLUG... “that is the way a slug propels itself” as in movements or thoughts can “win” but these only add up to be a pile of astral junkyard... mugwort hypnogogic imagery was presenting itself as I went to sleep earlier...
also at some point I see the planets of our solar system and how big Jupiter and Uranus are... also how (I don't know if this is real) the earth is bigger than mars and venus...
SU29/10/2017: the world is going to end. There is a conspiracy I am behind. It involves travelling and hacking... listening to people's conversations on a full train or aeroplane? Not liking some of the conversations? Not being able to pay for stuff? Stealing?
The end of the world is happening...
drinking one shot of whiskey. Joan won't let me have another
MO30/10/2017: darkness
the deadly art of mindfulness through media control... a sopwith plane crashes into the audience... a new cast is found for INXS... Barry Tulip is threatened as we walk through the countryside... we try to help him
dreamt that music is full of people who are gods and Michael Hutchence was in complete control of his mind and could do many strange things... the sensations of the dream are otherworldness... a giant Prodigy plastic model flexes it's muscles...
TU31/10/2017: sonic the hedgehog is a higher state of consciousness?
WE1/11/2017: Dan the guitarist from Orpington College looks just like John Frusciante of the Red Hot Chili Peppers and I show him my music and my drum machines. Then I think something immature and he says suddenly “it's evil” about some spirit presence... I try to avoid saying anything else to upset him but he has lost his temper with me and I try showing him my drum machines (including the pads) and he is not interested... then we are walking down a corridor when Rosemary Pepper is dressed in a bikini and has this sexual energy about her. She has a devilish glint in her eye and she is somehow a teacher and talks in a riddle (?) to both of us... the wind is blowing through her hair even though we are inside and the windows are shut...
TH3/11/2017: I am in a strange tactile place where increasingly nasty jokes and fantastic effects are pulled off by people who don't like me... stuff works differently in this world...
SU5/11/2017: going to a computer graphics symposium I find out a certain dangerous gas is blowing out of the rear of a vehicle... at the symposium I will have the chance of killing Jennifer Sykes because I have learned a secret of how a womans' period works and the symposium is hosted for women...
WE8/11/2017: a very dangerous game with a sequel, an Asian guy is making it and a sexy stalker element with magick is there also...
I rediscover my Marilyn Manson Holywood CD with all the original artwork...
an RPG like the Ultima ones but partly connected with a hospital...
then an old CD PC game about the Asylum where an evil nurse or doctor with a large gut is treating me like he wants to kill me but it is like the Millbrook Ward in England when I first went in and in the end I go up some staircases and the nurse looks like the German beer-brewing nurse from Clyde only more sinister... a war is on and someone has the Aquanimble?
TH9/11/2017: writing a computer game?
Mick Jagger is questioned about Wembley Stadium with INXS. He responds fiercely and says aswell “i want to do the Verve. I want to do the Verve naked with a frisbee on top”
FR10/11/2017: schizophrenia is not real according to this American medicine guy and he goes through weird contortions to prove it...
SA11/11/2017: the Dalai Lama visits us as I sing “The Deadbeat Club” by the B52s for a girl I know... the Dalai Lama arrives by orange boat as we are on the beach and some people are organizing the event...
SU12/11/2017: I travel in an alternative version of London (closer to tropical islands that I have invented) on the train to buy a new Marilyn Manson album... a lot of weird schenanigans are going on including Marilyn Manson himself performing the song Anti-Christ Superstar... there is an element of danger but I develop a technique of not looking at people who may be mocking me or laughing at me...
then a different dream set in a lake region I don't know where Noel and Louise the helper from RFT turn up with others and start laughing in that way when there is an “Andre” joke to laugh about... I am getting angry and say something abusive but we all agree we can go inside the pinewood house as I boil up the largest amount of water for drinks... because the crowd of people is massive I joke “why don't I put a solenoid into the lake and boil the water”
then I am masturbating in shit when I debug a small laptop computer and get it working for myself? It has a cut down version of Windows on it... also I am writing a Rogue-Like game with pixel blocky RPG graphics... it is all in this house in the countryside as I clean up the mess before Joan gets home...
MO13/11/2017: a guy wakes up in a prison cell in London only to realize he has been captured by the Nazis. He doesn't give up and keeps whacking the jail cell door (metal) until he is badly bleeding... then some stern woman comes and he washes off the blood with some shampoo... earlier it was shown he wrote a book... even earlier in the dream a scene in London where a plane crashes and I want to dye my hair? A gameshow?
A kind of quest in England where the time is weird? Things are going kind of crazy...
TU14/11/2017: Geoff Goldblum is in some kind of alcoholic or breakdown point in various locations including the ocean...
WE15/11/2017: in England a bunch of stuff I need to sort out before school returns and I spy a couple of kids walking along reminding me that school is back
SU19/11/2017: letting the blood run. A dangerous stunt is pulled where a uni student bleeds out deliberately and nearly dies??? it is vaguely linked with role playing games and Japan
MO20/11/2017: a little black kid is saying “stress can be really useful” also “i feel really motivated” (referencing motivational psychology in the dream)
TU21/11/2017: a bleeding guy sitting up front like an idiot with black hair undergoing pain in his expression while all these blossoming things are going on under and around him
WE22/11/2017: my dreadlocked hair is disgusting and I ignore some girls who look like they want to flirt with me.. a quest? A long journey by foot and other means...
then a massive map where a huge warehouse is and it is like a store place for people's possessions... I am thinking of stealing stuff...
TH23/11/2017: a party? Where people are re-enacting a scene which took place years ago as a murder of snow was nearly completed using the television and explosives? I am doing my magickal flying bit...
FR24/11/2017: some kind of radio phone in but it must be tv really as it is audio and visual both... some free software is being recommended on the show off the internet which allows a person to mess around with the webcam video whilst they are singing to create strange distortions... the best offering from these wins the prize... people have to write their own songs but the theme is the same
then using powers of visualization to enhance my tennis game
SU26/11/2017: a train is carrying us through the countryside at the end of some collective trip... a black (Hindu?) man is driving the train and I move to the front carriage while it is moving... we end up spending a time in the countryside (France?) where we investigate insects and animal skulls... it is shown that if you have the right attitude the insects aren't dangerous at all...
TU28/11/2017: the nurse Christine is in a countryside residence (not Tyena) where she is performing horrible practical jokes that are bordering on the psychopathic... I escape with my life saying “what did you do with Granddad, pluck out his eyes and feed them to him?”
TH30/11/2017: at the end of the dream James Morey is a punk with his own friends in a train terminal like Charing Cross where we all need to catch a train back to Petts Wood, but some magickal horrible thing is going on and I need to flap my fairy wings to fly high above the crowd of misguided creatures... the train arrives and I need to get on it but the weird antics are holding us up...
then a dream where I need to get back to Sidcup on the Connex but I have the wrong train or travel card? I change? Twiggy Ramirez plus strange passengers...
then I need to use the London trains yet again... Oxford Circus? Drugs? A tightrope walker? An Arab beggar? A library?
FR1/12/2017: black candles... red candles...
a VGA 320x200 image of a giant insect that starts messing with me...
then in the 24 Prescott Avenue house when a relative and his girlfriend (who is only 16 but looks older) visit me as I am writing or completing a game... I am in the kitchen preparing noodles and recommend some snacks to them... the girlfriend I dreamt of earlier and she had pigtails and blonde hair
also brewing up coffee in the dark passageway of 24 Prescott Avenue with the funny ceiling light...
I don't want to go near it...
SA2/12/2017: a powerful nightmare where the cover of the Tasweekend newspaper magazine has an image of Tim Henman on court holding an electric guitar instead of a tennis racket... I am trying to keep my cool in this office block as more and more people are insulting me and carrying on in the end I lose it and walk out to wait outside for my parents...
SU3/12/2017: relatives and friends are in this castle where a song by INXS (on my headphones in real life) is playing and Gerhardt Heinselman amongst others are having some kind of (astrological?) magick cast about them with food all wiped on their faces and there is a sense of bad humour... earlier a variety of auto-erotic asphyxia devices were shown with some quite complex fates...
then some advert for a Jurassic Park-like production but fighter planes are involved and we must go into the higher atmosphere above the Earth to do combat...
Courtney Love and Melissa Auf De Mar are among the inquisition as I race up the levels of a huge building to play more computer games on a primitive but surprisingly graphical computer... for some reason there is a way to get high resolution high colour scrolling but everything else on the computer is so slow... I fancy writing a game myself...
a party in a big house where everything will blow...
then a dream where I am stranded in some make-believe place which has a weird creative playful trip about it... things can be 'created' as in castles can be built and other computer game like things can be erected or taken down... it is like a dream version of Minecraft...
MO4/12/2017: pussy on legs, a prostitute, London at night on my own, a scientific demonstration?
Then the art teacher from PICU (the woman) and Steve Davidson are around in a strange combination of a regular hospital and an art room where my art on magic mushrooms is being looked at. Gretchen is scolding me and Steve is laughing... by the beach? Two booklets of my art? Art in the dream is shown...
back to the jungle???
TU5/12/2017: I am writing my own computer game which is very 2D and basic, then I am writing one by the seat of my pants which is 3D and has action of a medieval nature in it... level 3 or 4 is being created and it involves (in the game editor at least) flying over a part of the castle at night... I meet some NPC characters who are very evil and patronising... I am trying to use CSG in the engine... each level has some unique design added to it...
TH7/12/2017: then a dream where things have taken off in dream consciousness and I am on a military boat in a jungle location where a lot of naked ladies have purpose and evil is being committed as part of a government plot... a bit like Texas Chainsaw Massacre where later I end up going to a hostel like place of some evil too... sex is a method?
SA9/12/2017: an ant colony thinks and I am stuck in a giant one... the moves I have to keep making are fast and precise or the ants will catch up and destroy me... it is also taking place on a huge railway system through the countryside...
then a dream where Marilyn Manson is a cult and I am in an alternative Australia in the wilderness where PR stunts are being performed by Marilyn...
SU10/12/2017: a dream where a game like football or rugby is being played with BBQ sausages and other food items... players can kick forward or backward depending on the rules
MO11/12/2017: I am rehearsing playing live music in a long black leather trenchcoat...
WE13/12/2017: an angry man like Glen from Mistral is running a bottle shop and I browse for absolutely ages while he looks more and more angry. Then I choose something and his hair on his face (stubble) is crystal clear in the dream and I go outside to return walking past Eltham station to Sidcup where a guy walking looks like a grown up version of Matthew Harris but as I look closer it is an Indian man and he is smiling...
TH14/12/2017: in the dream I remember high diving into water from somewhere and the secret is to stick your legs out straight and I try to find a place in England or Tasmania for cliff-top high diving.
I am thoroughly I can remember diving like this in real life. I am on a bus? Also earlier a cop stops our car (with a strange man driving) and the man in our car is drunk and regretting the breath test about to take place... (after the dream I was convinced I had dived like this in real life even though I hadn't)
FR15/12/2017: “it wouldn't be the same without the laughter of our young Jim Davidson” says a character at the end of a dream involving myself masturbating. Water, setting fire with gasoline to a teenager with his eyebrows shaved and face white put on as he stars in a tv show from the 70s?.
In Sidcup I get a stash of drugs and still walk around the streets every night but not to score...
a dream where I am a different guy who is going to this Buddhist retreat like a hostel to spend some time in education of his Buddhism but goes soporific among the people so he has to remember his sense of anger in order to make his way through the crowd going back after about 2 days...
SA16/12/2017: food is served at cafeteria tables but the leftovers must be collected, so a plan is made to group all the plates together. It is more dramatic in the dream than it sounds...
a plot which takes place in France as we (a group amongst groups) are held up in traffic or crowds and have to decipher an old text to find some clue about something...
I dye my hair blue and get a bad hair cut, so I look like “molly of the internet”... a journey back to 1954?
I high speed train in France where there is a problem with the fact I might have ordered Peyote seeds off the internet or grown them??? the driver of the train is questioning me??? I am tossing around a tiny peyote cactus and explaining how it takes a year for the roots to grow and longer to get the juice...
MO18/12/2017: an incredibly long dream demonstrating the dangers of sound mixing with certain frequencies. Hip hop music, airplanes colliding, David Sevvage acting strangely, explosions and the impending end...
then a very strong dream where I am in London (an alternative version but present day) and have to use the A-Z to get around. I don't feel socially motivated but convince myself to just plod about a bit. Nathan Pratt turns up and he jumps into water just beyond what I thought was a cliff...
WE20/12/2017: there is a tv show being made on an island like Bermuda where sexual tension is high and a plane crash lands into the beach? Tesco is mentioned at the end of the dream. James Morey is in the dream as well as a guy in dreadlocks who looks rather like a bayou monster. The actors on the show are showing off their acting skills and it is really cheesy...
continuing with the dream a friend I know of my age he is an actor and has a role in this tv show and we end up in the bayou together where a realistic crocodile is totally evil and trying to kill us as I paddle through the green mulch making up the surface of the swamp... it looks like it is too late and in the dream I get to feel what it is like to be devoured by a crocodile...
then in a supermarket I am frantically getting ready for a train to depart somewhere and I am dressing myself also I have dyed my hair black like Jon Bon Jovi has done (he has a skinhead haircut aswell) on the artwork of his latest CD. I accidentally knock over a whole load of tea boxes off the supermarket shelf as Joan is patiently waiting elsewhere. She said something like “we should have left an hour ago”
then I am conscious of the crowd as I embark on the London Underground to find myself at a station where I want to be with a day pass in my hand and Joan is serving Farmers Union strong ice coffees at this building...
dreamt of churches and the power in them
TH21/12/2017: I am jamming with Marilyn Manson and have to get it right which is difficult. Marilyn is wearing the Daisy Berkowitz style black sunglasses from earlier in his career...
then a long and realistic dream where a form of black magick is used but the results on my lifestyle are horrendous and I am forced to go through a 'Carrie' moment from which there is no escape... all my energy and thought is pushed through this 'Carrie moment'. Then eventually I end up talking to a wise man on a golf course but he is being a pain in the arse...
FR22/12/2017: an oral sex face sleepily sucking on fish...
SA23/12/2017: a building where an id issue is taking place and this girl recounts a story of the African svelt. I see in the African plains how high or far a gorilla or chimpanzee can jump then I witness from a distance a group of different animals including zebras and horses race towards a group of three naked young white women with droopy boobs sitting down. One is massacred as another sticks the car keys up her vagina and pretends to sleep so the animals won't attack her...
TU26/12/2017: I am part of a real life RPG computer game where dragons are some of the most dangerous creatures and they are real. They do battle as I travel around attempting to win but I get killed just when it looks like I can win...
WE27/12/2017: I have been 'altered' in a strange way and people are picking on me in a strange location...
a dream where I am confronting a psychopath called 'Odin' who has special powers of psi and strength. He has a nondescript jacket and blue jeans and a shaved head. He is coming after me! But he is coming after everyone also... I dash into the police station in main road Sidcup (a little different to it's real life position) after seeing a video made by some girls who were captured and used as bait? Some plastic explosive killed them... Odin breaks into the police station using a shape shifting trick to fool the officer answering the front door. I end up clobbering Odin with my feet and hands as fiercely as possible...
TH28/12/2017: black holes and solving them
FR29/12/2017: two musicians from the band Tool are using a video camera to capture school children on a trip where the kids (myself included) have to do some task which violates their human rights...
SA30/12/2017: dreamt of Thom O'Brien with weird antics going on and a sense of him questioning me... somehow he had a nastier taint to him in the dream than in real life...
SU31/12/2017: a dream takes place fairly normally but all these nasty schoolchildren break into the gardens of 27 Lyminge Close at night and look black and red causing hideous things to happen...
MO1/1/2018: back to the land of the dinosaurs...
WE3/1/2018: sex with Angela, but the scenarios are weird...
then a long dream where a youngster is masturbating? Dr. McCarther is around at the end which takes place in a town but earlier many locations were linked to some Robert Jordan type books. A train passes through some countryside... something weird around it...
TH4/1/2018: professional bank robbers, elevators and getting shot at
professional instinct, getting shot at
MO8/1/2018: in the countryside a group of us are held up whilst Martin Scorcese is filming his latest production... the genius of this director is evident in how every tiny detail of the scenery falls into place... it is clear that Martin Scorcese has a strong willpower but he is careful to protect his style or magic...
TU9/1/2018: Day of the Gusano Slipknot is on my iPod whilst I have this dream w/ Spit it Out and I am painting the band in an A3 sketchpad as Corey tells the crowd to jump the fuck up...
then a dream where I am in a forest like an RPG where the imagery is good but the movement is restricted to squares... when I am next to a 'Made In China' square I can blow it up using explosives... but it is not always obvious which are the 'Made In China' squares... sometimes a chain reaction of explosives is triggered...
FR12/1/2018: Noel and Joan have set up an internet service of ordered food and a truck drives by at this festival I am at, like an arts festival with “Noel and Joan etc.” written on it... Black Grape are playing a song which has this keyboard part in badly quantized time...
SU14/1/2018: the fire brigade accompanies me on an expedition through countryside and a town because I need help after an accident in a park. Joanne from Garfield Road is around and I flirt with her, but every time I speak the people around me speak straight back talking in a language which suggests I am a star... I am getting a lot of support but the people don't like it entirely...
then a strong dream where camel riders escort me out on this journey to save me but something nasty goes on and I end up in a cheap restaurant with them where some arrangement we made kicks in and it turns out I have no time to avoid someone coming after me but this huge tree outside falls on the woman who is trying to kill me just so the hollow part of the tree falls on me as the trunk kills her... very realistic ending...
MO15/1/2018: a VERY REALISTIC dream where class of Chis-n-Sid returns after holidays and Madame Hickey is taking a class in a classroom where antics of a supernatural nature break out and everything magickal starts manifesting. She flies through the air by disappearing one second then reappearing somewhere else in the room the next second. Then she apologizes for going so far as she has inspired the class to get wicked with each other and perform magick themselves. Outside Will Smith is a pupil and he is sitting out on the roof where he is a student and needs to keep his cool. A bunch of shenanigans go on then someone says “where is Andre?” and I am revealed in this dream as someone very advanced in the magickal arts... I scold everybody “six of wands foolery! The future of the earth is at stake” but I am maintaining my own stance of survival just like everyone else... and I have to walk home so I don't say much... in the dream no-one was able to calm down or relax for their safety but they were smarter than a fool about it...
then a dream where Thom O'Brien is going to be at a meal that is arranged in 27 Lyminge Close and he has to go through the creation of a meal with me out of various condiments...
TU16/1/2018: Chairman Mao is nearly assassinated with a rocket and whilst this happens Marilyn Manson is elected President of the USA...
FR19/1/2018: at the end of a dream it seems that people who are living their lives well act on every impulse like it is the greatest discovery they have made... that way they don't have to motivate themselves...
SA20/1/2018: mucking around at a railway then we enter a city created on the very latest GPUs on PCs as part of a Robert Jordan like game which is Chinese in theme. I go WOW at how amazing the graphics are and look up at the massive Chinese gates above our heads as we walk through a city which has been taken over by poisonous monsters. The shop windows contain massive dead monsters like dragons... too late! We end up cornered down where more monsters are infront and behind us...
TU23/1/2018: playing an RPG where snow is my girlfriend
WE24/1/2018: James Iha and D'Arcy of the Smashing Pumpkins are in a bizarre plot...
FR26/1/2018: rehearsing Kung Fu kicks and browsing books on 3D rendering techniques like facial composition
SA27/1/2018: lots of different scenarios, but DOING IT???
massive dreams about attaining vampire powers... the Lost Boys? The otherside? Yoda says about doing yoga to become undead since your flesh or mind forgets why you are there...
SU28/1/2018: a solution is found by a teacher who looks like Jan from Tyena... she organises her class whilst the kids run around and lights a pyromaniac's wet dream to defeat this hideous evil... earlier a dream where small “robots” like “nano-robots” or designer drugs are created which damage all our brains but what joy! All these dreams are filled with emotion and are very realistic...
a nightmare where I am trying to get back from an alternative London on public transport but the whole thing is diabolically rigged so I may lose my life...
full on Horrobin hell and trying to get back to Sidcup...
also a cross between a spiritual book store and a Chinese restaurant
WE30/1/2018???: a lunatic hospital in some countryside where the owner takes advantage of the weird magic of the place to create a spooky sense. He roams the corridors talking to himself, but really he is part of using the hospital for armaggedon. I am James Morey and I fly around by psi but I am relying on my absinthe stash to keep going otherwise I will quit...
a place in the countryside where I stay for several months to become better at something... I resume my studies at an alternative Chis-n-Sid afterwards and meet Abigail Caine amongst others. Another cult?
TH1/2/2018: absolute psychosis as I pull out a black portable hi fi system which is actually a gaming device and Joan and Noel are laughing their heads off at me as I play this vertical scrolling shoot-em-up... Ricky the cleaner is around aswell...
SA3/2/2018: an exam and picking a woman. Natalie Hammond advises me about picking a woman: “try to get a woman and not a gross disfiguration of one” meaning that some women are really poor at carrying out their role... a stage coach in the night and I am like a Jonathon Harker type of character...
WE7/2/2018: a computer game that involves urinating... the map scrolls around like a wrap around texture and fighter planes are involved but when you get close to the target you are really approaching it from the other direction because of the wrap around feature in the game design... Angela is involved as are all the Lavoipierres but we know we will die? Without fear?
TH8/2/2018: the keyboard player Rick Wakeman (?) is releasing a book and there is a bookstore launch of this novel which has a black spitting fire demon shape on the cover and people outside are psychically perceptive of me and are hippies and are laughing and carrying on as Rick has a police sign on his head and says “no more fun here”
FR9/2/2018: “sketch forward. These are my deprivation hands. The dunny” I say as Noel grabs my hands and we investigate why no absinthe bottle is around as someone has stolen our stuff...
MO12/2/2018: getting the “dangerous issue” of the tv guide with Neighbors featured as a huge alligator leaps vertically out of the water of this lake...
TU13/2/2018: Dungeons and Dragons has taken over the planet, as in the nightmare playing the D&D game means you acquire certain powers but everything is linked by the quantum down to the core level of the way the entire planet functions... it is action packed and scary...
digital anarchy... I have total control using my mind of electronic music and the results are spectacular...
WE14/2/2018: Nicholas from RFT is with us telling jokes and I ask him if there is a formula for his jokes and he admits there is... we drive down main road Sidcup and there is a character from a Quentin Tarantino film (a black guy) driving the other way looking like he is sweating the jungle and death. Then we make it into the bottom of a high rise building where Nicholas fakes a passcode and we enter the main office area... when we exit we pass a guy who looks like Quentin Tarantino and we tell him this...
TH15/2/2018: the band Tool are getting me to use a crystal ball and I have a young girlfriend who collapses because of this occult stuff... I catch her fall... she has long fine black hair... I feel good saving her
I am Marilyn Manson and I am performing to a huge indoor crowd in America where I hit the loud notes and connect with the smiling young audience...
unsure which dream this had to do with but I get a threat of being mindfully devoured from within in a sun baking orgy...
FR16/2/2018: handling my own anti-psychotics... a trip to Bali? Christine the nurse is with me as I have to be strong like a hero off the anti-psychotics...
SU18/2/2018: a long and realistic dream where I get mocked by everyone... the issue towards the end becomes one of pain and how I begin the thankless task of embracing pain in life so I am a star...
MO19/2/2018: Michael Hutchence on stage dressed in white with an arrogant look... flying in a 747?
TU20/2/2018: a fantastically long and realistic dream where a woman and a man are crossed by a party of us on a country walk and the man has a brown pony tail and is riding on a child's tricycle. She is controlling him and they are both tuned into Snow's magick and have produced a porno which is very underground and sorcery and our brigade need to get back home so the horrific end can be avoided... at one point two wasps are being handled with bare hands in the dirt as it is demonstrated that someone has “de-wasped the wasp”... also the woman was saying about the man “he wants some dick, he wants some dick” with a real red dick
WE21/2/2018: I am in a TV studio where I have won the chance to be on TV with Marilyn Manson... only the REALLY EVIL NATURE OF HIM is revealed and people are doing nasty things to me in the tv studios. I want to carry on living so I bust a runner outside where I can head off but a bunch of kids accost me... bad burgers were delivered earlier and some tech guys were figuring out a way to ignite an explosion rigged to a timer...
FR23/2/2018: a nightmare where mindfulness has made me some kind of monster over the years and all I can do is prolong the mindfulness... it is ridiculous until I see some good in the whole thing... magickal manuscripts are discussed in a second hand bookstore...
MO26/2/2018: a nightmare where some people want to organize my life but I resist and they want me to sign away my rights so I run to escape over the hangover traffic system around St. Mary and St. Josephs in Sidcup (an alternative version). A man who looks like Nivek Ogre of Skinny Puppy allows me to stand on his back to squeeze through an escape hole just in time...
then a realistic dream where I am in America and reality is revealed as I date a girl who is a star herself into TV shows but the nasty side of the culture is shown as I have little hope of joining her in her world since I am in the psych ward and can't get out to be 'free'. Then it is shown how I trick the system and get a hot single on the airways... earlier I was listening to “True Men Don't Kill Coyotes” by the RHCP in an old red car and the nasty side of American culture is revealed... also people were Marilyn Manson fans too... ICE MEN ARE COMING says the dream as a marching gang of men with eye goggles is portrayed... also how we in the psychiatric system need it to protect us but this is not the way to live... plus a guy was saying how if I do anything violent to him there is a psychiatric facility I would go to and he holds up a vial of “red liquid”
FR2/3/2018: electrocution and radiation burns
then packing my bags for a trip through a city, but we are preparing in an old Tudor style house...
SA3/3/2018: I am ranting in a dream to a man about how good (sarcastically) Jesus is for me
SU4/3/2018: on a special train going back from London but everything is disrupted by an older David Bowie where a woman looking like Gwen Stefani is doing something as part of a show or pair of movies selected by voting to be on these digital channels
MO5/3/2018: my perfect girlfriend? Laura Jenman is leaving sixth form from the Chis-n-Sid and is packing her bag as I am too... I follow her outside the school grounds. We are the only ones as everyone else has already left... we walk into a shopping precinct...
TU6/3/2018: I am in Oxford University in England when I see on a tv monitor a show where Kenneth Dunster reveals that his character in the show Neighbours is gay... he is having gay sex a lot of intimidating behaviour and a character lands on his head... even though I am a lot older I am somehow in Oxford university and find one of their libraries accidentally... it is a fantastic library all in green with such huge dimension that I get lost in it but I think everyone else will notice how untidy I look but in a cultish way like I look cool... I browse through the magick and occult section... before seeing a cat and feeling its' fur brush against my leg as I make my way up stairs to the second level... very realistic dream
then I am in the 27 Lyminge Close flat as I look out my bedroom window to see the fractal plasma map of colours all down Lyminge Close from this book I am reading by Kevin Bacon or is it Kiether Sutherland?
WE7/3/2018: mentally controlling media by people who work in the media industry...
TH8/3/2018: Axl Rose stars in a vampire movie with a lot of fighting and hurling enemies through the air like martial arts... Yin is my satanic familiar and acts on my telepathy with nastiness...
In the dream I end up at an English University where I score acid and start running around avoiding enemies (plenty of them) whilst I realize just how many students take drugs but then don't ever take drugs again after that... look a-likes of Jimmy Page and Robert Plant are around doing their Led Zeppelin thing...
a gameshow on the TV where massive social cruelty happens...
FR9/3/2018: for the first time I am conscious of Carlos Casteneda sorcery taking place and am spooked by it...
Angels and that side of the family are performing sorcery and I am aware of it... Angela is younger and thinner and has dyed black hair...
SA10/3/2018: all the junk food does not work as I try to get some rock/punk magazine thing going...
TU13/3/2018: a dream where I see myself from another perspective, as this psycho man with a Jason Voorhees type thing happening who can only jerk himself but is capable of living a colourful life if he can solve the puzzle of how to continue his game programming so he gets enough money to pay for alcohol etc... the solution is to “avoid conscription”... at the end of the dream I beat myself physically in the head...
TH15/3/2018: I am in a version of a place like Picu but I have a gaming device like a Playstation Vita and am using it to play this difficult platform action game... at the last level I find something goes wrong and I talk to the office it seems the Russian President has been killed and Armageddon is coming along as planned, a passionate young girl is in PICU helping everything to go along... someone has smashed my crystal ball in PICU... I will have to order another one...
red skeleton with a scythe over it's head...
FR16/3/2018: writing a computer game like the Tomb Raider series but I am swinging around in some trees and a staircase where spooky things are going on... the engine is 3D with clipping based on portal like subsections and some arc welders arrive looking dangerous at the end...
a vivid nightmare where I can't get it right at all in life but towards the end somehow I just act myself and everything becomes alright somehow... sex IS something I want
then I am listening in the dream to Dr. Dre and Bizarre sing
a dream where I am living in an apartment block where there is an elevator and I bump into Melissa Clarke aswell as other friends... I am conscious of her emotionally and have some special trick I perform like hopping or jumping as I move around... I bump into Kevin Cooley...
SA17/3/2018: in the Petts Wood house I am wearing my old leather jacket and am excitedly hopping around as we are all discussing brainsmash and I half-joke that “what if it was Aleister Crowley?” then I decide to go out for a jog...
learned incredible secrets of the human mind in crowds of people on the train in England and end up knowing how evil in social butterfly terms Marilyn Manson is... 3rd eye is used all the time by people to put them in mind of what they are doing... I experiment myself and end up being able to walk into the elemental earth plane... this idea gives me confidence and I am able to move myself through groups of people without them laughing at me while I know I am keeping something myself of what I am doing and this boosts my ego... going back on the train from London I am also somehow in Hobart and see a poster of someone who looks like Michael Hutchence and he has had doodles drawn on his face by someone... earlier I was taking the role of Marilyn Manson as he got ready for a show with his third eye vision and looked down from an enormous height on the asphalt... like he was rocking limbs...
then a dream where a politician (for Labour?) in Australia has to dress weird and copy motions of ages ago in order to harness the psychism necessary for the walk around the area of activities for the campaign... I walk with him...
SU18/3/2018: hippy group sex among the sixties generation, with elementals (gods)
MO19/3/2018: a very full on dream where we are at a university (in America?) and a small group of us are students who are doing some kind of lifestyle thing where we act in a really bizarre way to attract attention but I am wondering how it looks to others... I get the idea to raise my game for a chance to stop “playing in the shit” and find that getting away from teenage freakyness is possible but some people carry off the political state of mind a whole lot better... I grab a pencil and start sketching so my 'style' is changing into something artistic... a politician walks past us and I notice how he is not really that clever and looks like a stupid version of Nicholas Cage... a breezy embarrassing teenage girl goes past on a bicycle too large for her...
there is this girl who has a blue cloth mask stretched over her face to hide first degree burns that I inflicted psychically on her and she is walking faster than the others away from the Chis-n-Sid when I become aware I can do the physical motions of basic gymnastics like her but realize that if I don't participate in Chis-n-Sid weight lifting gymnastics I will not live a 'quality life' as in the mind is comforted this way... Daniel Robinson is doing gymnastics in the gym as I see him perform but I think I can handle dodging out of the whole thing as I don't need “mind over matter”... earlier the girl with the blue cloth mask tries to murder me by making me nearly fall off a great height psychically...
TU20/3/2018: more and more spectacular disasterous things keep happening as we are tested for our hunting skills in a class gone mad... Geoffrey is there and he can just about handle all that is thrown at him... in the end mysterious things keep rising from the water all around us, including a giant spaceship like the Millenium Falcon...
TH22/3/2018: Keith from Orpington College, but with man-boobs, filling out a puzzle using the phone at a desk and aliens who are dangerous...
FR23/3/2018: playing a computer game like Might And Magic with Gerhardt
SA24/3/2018: this guy (me?) but none I recognise must really get his act together or he will not be able to perform a task for America of jumping off the statue of liberty or King Kong... it has been done numerous times before and the date is special (thanksgiving?)... there is tv coverage of the thing and I become nervous in the final moments and aware I could die but as I progress I find a sort of confidence and get into the spirit of it as I travel by the side of a road out in the USA countryside where the 'run up' occurs... will I go way off track? A plane is there too... all this is being broadcast on the TV... secret operatives? Performing music on TV is like this? Tool's Stinkfist is being sung on national TV by me or the guy doing the jump as a celebration...
continuing on mentally becoming a complete killer as I am grown up but in the Chis and Sid trying to organize a media presentation like a graphic novel or interactive 'computer book'... sexual tension is building... I am an adult in this
working hard on my computer game programming, but not the Aboriginal game... I am resurrecting some old code also pushing myself how much I can do... I am very motivated... at the end I see a skeleton hi-res figure jump down platforms with a red background...
SU25/3/2018: song of the siren... some female singer is used by club people in their dance music but things go drastically wrong at this kind of convention where the people there are in danger of things going telekinetically wrong... wrong way through doors etc... everyone is in on the joke and no-one cares since it is dance culture...
Mr Horrorbin is acting awful and so are the twins in a kind of perverse gameshow
a plot is taking place in Station Road Sidcup on the Chis-n-Sid side of the bridge where a young girls has been hired to play a prank on us... Mary Anne the cleaner from Tyena is part of the people dealing with it and I am too... Yin the cat gets involved and the whole mess is expensive...
MO26/3/2018: I see Chris Evans over the run up to Christmas in London on a red double-decker bus but he does not look like he wants to talk and gets off early... I try to get off at Embankment but the bus is moving fast and I jump off into the night... the traffic is ridiculously fast for London at night and I want to spend a small amount of cash in a record store before making my way back to Charing Cross where I can catch the train to go home... as I walk down this dodgy looking side street I step out of the way of a group of maniac bike riders but the weird thing is they are using some kind of magic to bend the wheels of their bikes to match the road surface and get incredible high speeds while assuming dangerous positions...
had a bizarre dream about writing games for 3d graphics cards... in the dream it was revealed that each graphics card can only play with best performance using one engine only...
TU27/3/2018: Kurt Cobain is acting out various poses and we are investigating it...
WE28/3/2018: some funny dream about San Francisco culture around Spacebar and spin offs also John Lennon and people who are trying to be “maverick” or “cool” like all John Lennon did was create something and his teeth explode sideways... sex is in it somehow and so is a lot of danger but I get people laughing a lot...
TH29/3/2018: an island like Madeira or Corsica where Alicia Witt shows up in my life... towards the end she is a model walking in a sexy way with silver shorts on... and a male voice says “and what she can accomplish in her life”...
FR30/3/2018: a whole school of bullies, we were enrolled for an exam in a strange school, plus something about a princess??? I am trying to act as if magick is really what I practice and drugs are vaguely mentioned...
SU1/4/2018: reaching the end of a dream I am studying media studies at college or school and have one packet of broken cigarettes left with a cigarette lighter(s)... a group of us are heading into some lake in the freezing cold to do some work as I hastily light up a broken fag and smoke it fast before plunging into the icy water to catch up to the others... we are supposed to be doing everything professionally and I want to show the teacher that I know my stuff...
diving practice... a whole lot of us have to master high diving in stages and all these young women are with us aswell as men too... it is kind of college age and foreign but we will make it back... I am sexually aroused but hide it... I think 'think up a mental trick to make the simple dive do-able...' and the trick is to imagine only the tips of my fingers going into the water! One male student is castigated for thinking of the computer too much...
a dream where I live in a cross between school and the record store in Bromley... Simone is my girlfriend but she marches off in disgust as I realize snow is for real and how sad everything is... they have taken my bedroom and flat and converted it to be an annex to the record store... NIN were performing The Fragile live onstage and Trent was an expert at relating the emotions of the songs to the audience...
MO2/4/2018: a complex dream about using designer drugs to induce a state of role game playing...
TU3/4/2018: a realistic dream where it is revealed that the Clinton family are larger than you think and their secrets are shocking as in how their carry on with their power... they have practically supernatural abilities and are looking at real estate? Our house? Towards the end it is revealed that some of them are on cocaine and opiates give the advantage of hallucination... I see the room from the perspective of a mouse like totally HORROR! we (Noel and Joan and myself) decide to buy the Clinton house...
computer games again... a feeling of sexual arousal as in the dream a computer game is being played where the high end graphics of a console... some sort of serpent is devouring a clock tower...
WE4/4/2018: a vivid dream where I am in America and I am journeying on the cheap but everything seems to be wild and scary? It turns out that due to “god in the tv” contacting god using a tv set is dangerous and eventually I end up performing great night contortions on a road to avoid being electrocuted by flying cables off an electricity pylon... the reason why strangers look so dangerous is thus revealed!
Then I am in control through tactile means of a giant kind of balloon like an interactive science exhibit where my touching the surface generates little electrical impulses which allow musical pitches to be heard... the whole thing is like a synthesizer experiment and I get it wrong at first but quickly learn how to make it work...
TH5/4/2018: at university age in the USA, Billy Corgan of the Smashing Pumpkins is around and we are on this overpass somewhere as mad things are happening...
a dream with the band Blur where some music magazine has picked Sivablood and Blur to go alongside in a kind of interview/real life situation... Damon Albarn is always taking the piss as are the rest of the band...
FR6/4/2018: a realistic music industry dream where it is revealed that Jennifer Williams was always the girl for me but she never was in a good situation with the 'Gods' to date me... the powerful nature of the 'Gods' of the music industry including Michael Hutchence and Bono and David Bowie and even? Richard Branson is shown and how they get away with blue murder in life because of certain 'genius character flaws'...
the 'genius toaster'! In a place like Heathrow Airport I end up in a room with huge orange/red walls and use the swinging of a hammer to shatter glass... I have to do this because the airline tickets we were given are false and I will never catch the plane so I act as violently as I want to...
then have I used methamphetamine? I am in a trailer in Sidcup waiting for the Caines and some kind of heavy metal band arrives and there is a ruined skull of someone and songs are poorly written about being trapped on ICE or methamphetamine... damaged skull?
At the end of a dream where I am stuck on a stretch of coastline a big black dog starts paddling in the water and I notice there is an empty sack of flesh where it's lungs have been removed... the owners of the dog show up with hate on their faces and question me thinking I removed the dog's lungs but I protest my innosense... I was in the water trying to find a way around the headland and think... “if I get the binoculars they might get damaged in the water or maybe I can stick to the coastline”...